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| ...Making a new Entry =D Nothing much going on in my life now, just glad that freaking musical is OVER... DONE... FINISHED... GONE FOREVER, *Evil laugh* Its not that it was bad... well some of it was, it just got old really fast, and the practices were really tedious I have a steady job now... get about 10-15 hours a week in, just working weekdays, and getting off at 5 every day lol, that means I work before school =D haha, 5:30-7:30, not too bad once you get used to it, and the money is nice Supposed to be getting satellite internet at my dads house sometime in december, that will be nice, it is supposed to be close to the same speed as dial-up Anyways, not much else to say, I don't feel like delving deep into an emotional talk right now, so maybe some other time Later chillins Austin | | |
| Just going to start this with a warning... This is extremely long, and only one person will truly understand what it means, but you will learn a lot if you actually read it. Went through a whole day of self reflection today... starting with my 45 minute shower this morning, my 30 minute prayer during church, and the 6 hours on the couch so far. In all that time, I have not figured out much at all. Only that I am very quick to judge people. I guess I have not learned the meaning of "Don't judge a book by it's cover" yet. Most of the time I judge a person on their appearance, their friends, things I have heard about them, and their views on God. Almost all of those are wrong reasons to judge a person (I'll leave you to do the guessing of which one). I didn't used to be like this, but then again, when you look whats happened in my life over the past few years, I guess that I have reason to feel like I do now. People are evil, trust nobody, and everyone will screw you over sometime in the end. Yea, I know, totally emo and against what I should believe in. I used to be the entire opposite of that, but then... the last three years of my life happened I guess I could not take it anymore. See the odd thing is that life has been great for me the past while. I have been closer to God than ever before. I have had more fun than I have had in a long time, and finally got something off my chest that had been haunting me for a year now... I can't figure out what would have caused me to start thinking this. I think it might be linked to my over-protectivness, usually linked with my first impressions on people. I usually connect these two... such as when someone close to me dates somebody, rarely do I feel that they are good enough, because of my first impression on them. 90% of my first impressions are not good for the person... granted they can change when I get to know them better, but not often do I take the time to get to know them better, I guess I have become secluded, which is not who I am. I have got to stop letting my past effect my present and future. I want to go back to the old me, the me that used to live day to day, care free, and happy going. I need to stop judging people by their appearences and go back to getting to know people before I judge them, just like I used to... everyone has my trust, what they do with it their choice, whether they keep it, or throw it right back in my face is entirely up to them. And finally, I need to keep up with my forward steps in my walk with God. I don't want to forget about the last three years of my life, but leave them behind and keep moving on. To those who have heard it Rascal Flatts - I'm moving on, fits wonderfully here. The opening line of that song "I've dealt with my ghost and I've faced all my demons". Which leads me to my next song that I know none of you have ever heard before... Tim McGraw - Kill myself That song can be interpereted in many man many different ways, but the way me and dad have settled on is that the guy in the song is killing the devil that lies inside of him, for the ones he loves. He realizes the person that he has become and does not like it. This is exactly how I feel. I hate this person that I have turned into, I want to go back to the old me... but with the life I have now. Three years ago I loved the person that I was, but hated the life that I was in... I guess nothing can ever be perfect though right? Well I have rambled long enough Thanks, if you actually took the time to read this Austin | | |
| Well since ryan was whining that I havn't updated in forever... here you go
Lets see, what interesting things have happened in my life... hrmmm nothing thats right lol
Elly came home thursday and we hung out for a while before the soccer games, then I went to go see pirates finally... I was a little disappointed with it actually, the first was way better in my opinion, so the 3rd really has a lot of ground to make up.
Friday, I babysat until 1, then went to work for dad until 5, then went to Elly's, then both of us went back to work for dad lol. I made $145 from babysitting and working for dad that day =D and Elly got my sunglasses for helping lol. After working we went skating, because we're cool people like that. Aaron, Ryan, and Hilary came out... Ryan skated with us because he is a cool kid, but apparently skating is below Aaron and Hilary, who are both losers lol. My car got tagged while at the skating rink... they'll get whats coming to them *evil laugh*
Saturday I went up to the Pratt fair to watch LoCash play, we got home at 2:30am but it was all fun, and they put on a great show like normal.
Sunday, I went to church, then the lake like always. Elly called after the movie her and Hilary went to go see was done and we went to Island park along with Aaron... I must say that playing a game of tag in the dark is a whole lot of fun =D
Anyways I have got to get to dads house, so I shall see you later
Bye Chillins | | |
| Well, guess I should update this now
Sunday Elly came over and we waited for my dad to tell us if we were going to lake or not. Finally he told us to get to his house or he was going to leave us there... well for those of you who know where he lives, I made it from my house to his house in 11min and 38seconds, with 3 stop lights =)
Well anyways, the lady who has the tube and the tubing boat was in wichita, so we didn't get to go tubing, but we still had a great time. Even if Kara loves Elly more than me =( my own cousin... turned against me. We are SOOO going back next weekend, it should be better as long as the weather is good
Monday... what did I do monday? Ummm I know sadie had her swim lesson so we went to the pool and Elly gave her that. Then we came back here for a while, Elly did stuff to my this site, new layout and all that cool stuff, I like it so I think I will leave it like this for a while. OHHH I borrowed all of my Dad's CD's so now I have EVERY Tim McGraw song on my Computer =D 5 hours and 55 mins of Tim McGraw... I'm in Heavan hehe. Anyways, went to sonic then to Elly's. We watched "The exorcism of Emily Rose" or something like that, it wasn't very good really.
Great time last night lol, yea anyways thats enough for now
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| Yea, righto chillins... I don't understand the point in this, but its better than sitting here and not doing anything... and I hate not doing anything because I always have to be doing something, and I have the tendency to ramble a lot, stopping now sorry.
Anyways, today I went to the Dexter BBQ thing from like 1-4 with my mom and Mike (my step-dad) we did the "Barnyard Olympics" it resulted in me being very worn out, very dizzy, and running in to a fence... twice. But who cares, I got a whole dollar coin for it!!!
Headed back to Dexter later that day to go meet up with Elly, Jarrett, and Taylor H. when Elly calls me saying that they left to go to Jarretts house and watch movies. So I just went to Dexter and ate... then went ALL the way back to winfield to find them at sonic then we went to Jarretts house. Not sure who all showed up but I met some of Elly's Ark City friends there, then Jeb, and Jaryd... yea, too many people in one room.
Yea I'm done... for now... I might update, sometime in the near future, taking elly to the lake tomorrow, so I might have some interesting stories to tell lol... ANYWAYS...
night chillins | | |
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